Break up..May'11

We break up..never thought that we been through all these years..5 years relationship just end up with a click..it really hurts me but i have to protect my heart not to get hurt anymore..goosshh..it makes me think back the time..tears goes down in a sudden..the reason why i break up our relationship is bcuz...dats lots of reason..since 2008 started the 1st problem..and so on..when i first heard dat i pregnant..in my heart says dat "thank god dat u gave a tiny lil heart growing in my worm.." but when i tell u da lil small heart...da 1st thing comes out from ur mouth is..u're not ready yt...at da same moment, i felt like a huge tornado carry all my hope towards u...since u have made up ur mind, i just have to work hard for my baby...but...goosshh...another tears drop on my face...but when u're ready to change ur mind, its too late..a small lil heart has gone forever in my life..there's no turning back or asked for another chance..no,not anymore..everything is not under my control..i'm da 1 who carry n i'm da 1 who have to say goodbye..i've been through all those pain..no one can ever feel da way i feel in dat cold room..after all wat i been through..i still stay up with u..i still can love u as i do..i still can care for u like i did before..but everything was pretending..i was pretending to be myself...i still can put a smile on my face even when i sad..i still can love u even though u hurt me so much..da time goes by..till u met ur new friends..everything has change between u n me..the more u spent with ur friends,the less time u notice me around u..when u need me,i always there for u..but when i need u...where have u been..where's ur shoulder dat i used to lay on..where's ur heart dat i used to love...where's ur hand dat u used to wipe my tears away...i always find a reason to make myself stay happy..da reason is "you're busy,dont blame him"..dis reason have accompany me for 3years..till da day i've made myself to say da words to u...we BREAKING UP..